Alas, my brother's month in Denver has come to an end and he left on Saturday afternoon. It's amazing how fast the time went by. I think he ahd a good time and although I felt guilty for not doing more, I think we had enough fun. Plus it's not like I make enough for two people to always go out and do stuff.
It was just depressing when I got home after leaving Mr. Kim at the bus station. My place felt so huge and empty, not to mention quiet. We had already put the air mattress away before he left and it was just weird staring at the spot where he used to sleep. I spent most of the weekend cleaning and doing laundry; just trying to get things back to the way it was I guess.
What really made me think about him being gone is realizing that although we rarely did anything, it was just nice having another body in the room with me. We could be reading two different books but when something crossed our mind or we found something funny, there was someone else to laugh at that with you. I feel bad for him because I know he doesn't have any kind of interaction with anyone he lives with. I guess I'm the same way as well and it was nice having someone to be lonely with.
Which got me thinking about dating. I went on Match because I was really pissed off about the whole Corey thing and I did it out of vindication. I haven't met anyone promising, maybe friends, but I don't know what I want still. It would be nice to have someone to hang out with and stuff, but having my own space back has made me realize that I'm fine with it. I'm ok with being by myself and being able to not shave for a week if I feel like it. True, I want to get dressed up for someone and have some regular sex but really, I think I can live without it for awhile. I did go for like, a year so honestly, it can't be that bad.
Since Mr. Kim is gone, I'm going to try to spend more time with Megan. She's in the Springs right now because her mom is having surgery but hopefully that all goes well. I'm supposed to hang out with Austin tonight so at least I have some plans for now.
On a side note, I finally weighed myself. 124 pounds. Gross. My goal will be to lose at least 9 pounds.
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