I guess I've had an interesting week or so. A lot has happened but at the same time, nothing has happened as well.
Tyson and I have been hanging out more often; I think we hung out twice last week. We went to dinner Tuesday night and it was a lot of fun. We can have a good conversation and keep each other interested and I don't mind making a total ass out of myself at times. After dinner we went to a park and just sat and talked and watched bats flying around. We kissed a lot, mostly because he's fun to kiss and I was drunk and happy. We got back to my place and I invited him up and I dunno, it was probably too soon but I figured this would happen sooner or later. It didn't last very long and I honestly thought he would last longer but oh well, whatever.
I had a really nice dinner with Megan on Wednesday. We went to Steuben's and hung out until 3 in the morning, just talking about this and that. I think she worries about me and Tyson; I think she worries that I'll move too fast like I always do and get my heart broken or worse. I think she's afraid of me falling in love with a guy who is totally wrong for me again. And I appreciate her concern because a good friend would care about things like that. We talked a lot about moving away from friends and how to keep in touch with them. We also talked about how liberating it is to move because then you can cut ties with the people you really didn't want in your life. I guess we both know that we want to be there for each other and we will do everything to keep in touch and you know, just not let each other slip through the cracks.
Which got me thinking of Kristin again. I know distance is hard on a friendship especially when there's really no reason for either of us to go to Ohio or Colorado besides each other. That sounds kind of harsh but truly, I have gone out there more than she came out to Colorado to hang out with me and David. Lately we have been better about talking to each other on the phone, I think we manage once a week now. However, even though I talk to her more often, we just don't see eye to eye on a lot of things. She seems so juvenile and immature and keeps making one bad choice after another. It's hard to be enthusiastic with her life choices because it's something that I can't even fathom or comprehend. I don't know how she doesn't see anything wrong with it when I think it's pretty obvious. I guess I don't really consider her a close friend anymore. I tell her what's new in my life but I don't really go in depth when it comes to things that have been bothering me. Thankfully, not much has been bothering me but still, if something were to come up I don't think she would be the first person I would call again.
She sent me my belated birthday present that I got last week. She sent me two books, Eat, Pray, Love and Catcher in the Rye. I was really surprised that she kind of remembered what I said about Catcher in the Rye; that Corey had borrowed it but had it in his computer bag when I moved out so I kind of lost that book although I do like it. Sometimes she really redeems herself. I was a little aprehensive about Eat, Pray, Love because I vaguely knew it was a story about some woman who got a divorce and did all these random things to get over her heartbreak and find love again or whatever. But it was a good read; emotional so I had to put the book down every few chapters, but all in all, it was ok. Again, what that woman did is something I could never do whether it's from fear or the fact that I don't have that kind of money. I saw the similarities from that book to what Kristin wants in her life or at least wants to do. There's nothing wrong with getting inspired by a book to do something but I think this is a little drastic.
Since Tyson was going to visit his brother for the Labor Day weekend, he wanted to come over Thursday before he left so he can see me. Which I thought was sweet. It was nice to not have to go anywhere and just hang out. Which isn't exactly what we did, but that's quite ok with me. God, he has the most amazing hands and those fingers...ah :) It's hard to tell if he likes me or not, but he did share some personal things about him such as his scars and how he got them. I guess he had second and third degree burns over 70% of his body from tripping over a fondue pot cord and spilling the oil all over his body. It was nice to talk about personal things like that and he asked me why I haven't seen my dad in so long. At one point in the night, he got a text from a friend saying that someone he knew had died. I felt so awkward because I didn't know what to say or do besides listen and hug him. Then he wanted to spoon and I hate cuddling and all that weird invasion of personal space stuff. However, I did it and it really wasn't that bad. Luckily it only last like, 3 minutes but that's long enough for me.
He left on Friday afternoon and came back Monday night. I didn't bother him by texting or anything since I knew he was hanging out with his brother and he said he'd call me when he got back. And he did :) He texted me on Monday after he got home and we're going out on Thursday which I'm excited about.
I hung out with Megan for the last time on Sunday. We went up to Boulder and it was packed since it was the CU-CSU game and it was really bittersweet. We had a good time hanging out but I could tell she was stressed and tired. It was really hard saying good bye; we tried not to cry too much but you know how it gets. It just sucks, I'm losing such a good friend. She's really my best friend here, well, anywhere. I don't have anyone else that I'm that close to. It's going to be tough but I'm hoping that our friendship can survive this.
Aside from all that, I think Corey's jealous that I'm dating. The worst part is, I'm glad he is.
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