I spent all of last week in Idaho visiting Tyson. I left Monday because I had to wait until David got back from Argentina so someone could watch the dogs. Before I left, I got some bad news from the vet regarding Cooper. He has something wrong with his kidneys and liver and I need to get more bloodwork done on him to figure out what's wrong.
Besides that, and honestly there's nothing I can do until I get more tests done on him, Idaho was ok. Tyson had to work Tuesday and Wednesday so while he was at work, I watched Dexter and took naps. He came home during lunch so we can have a quickie. Basically, all we did was have a ton of sex because there really wasn't much in Boise. Driving through downtown literally took 5 minutes. Tyson took me to his work so I got to meet some of his co-workers and see what he does. I guess it was more interesting, he did let me play with one of the planes and push buttons and play with the steering wheel, or the "yoke" as it's called.
What surprised me was that all of his co-workers seemed to know about me. They looked at me with a knowing gleam in their eye like, "Oh, you're Alisa..." Tyson introduced me to his good friends Jared and Austin and Jared and I got along really well because he's a goofy dork just like me and watches The Office. Jared was talking about the Westminster Dog Show and he was like, "Oh, I saw a Cooper prancing his stuff" and I was like, you know about my dog? I asked Tyson and apparently he talks about me a lot to his friends. Kinda scary and kinda flattering.
So we got into a few disagreements, I made him mad because I gave him the silent treatment and yeah, things were a little awkward. On Thursday we were planning on going up to the mountains in Stanley and originally we wanted to sleep in. Tyson was super excited about going and couldn't sleep and was worried about the roads so we left around 10. Before we left, we were talking in bed and I asked if he loved me, kinda joking, and he was quiet for awhile. Then he told me that he loved me. And it was a little awkward. So I told him I loved him too, and that I technically cheated because I told him when he was asleep New Year's day. He told me that he knew he loved me after that Bowl Game incident because he cared so much and it hurt so badly. Kinda fucked up, but he was sure of how he felt about me then.
Our drive to Stanley was really pretty. The weather was mostly clear so we had a great view of the mountains and the sunlight streaming through the trees. Our lodge was really cute and not as terrible as I had imagined. We went to Sun Valley for dinner and the next day we went snowmobiling. Which was a lot of fun, cold, but fun. Tyson had an amazing time because he was looking forward to it. Overall, the trip was good I guess, we mostly did the things that he wanted to do the entire time but I guess I was ok with it. I didn't really care.
So now I'm home. It's weird declaring our love for each other and while I thought this trip would clear my feelings for him, it only made things seem more complicated. I wonder if I really do love him or if I said it to make him happy. I don't know when he's coming back, and I don't know how much I care.
Besides that, and honestly there's nothing I can do until I get more tests done on him, Idaho was ok. Tyson had to work Tuesday and Wednesday so while he was at work, I watched Dexter and took naps. He came home during lunch so we can have a quickie. Basically, all we did was have a ton of sex because there really wasn't much in Boise. Driving through downtown literally took 5 minutes. Tyson took me to his work so I got to meet some of his co-workers and see what he does. I guess it was more interesting, he did let me play with one of the planes and push buttons and play with the steering wheel, or the "yoke" as it's called.
What surprised me was that all of his co-workers seemed to know about me. They looked at me with a knowing gleam in their eye like, "Oh, you're Alisa..." Tyson introduced me to his good friends Jared and Austin and Jared and I got along really well because he's a goofy dork just like me and watches The Office. Jared was talking about the Westminster Dog Show and he was like, "Oh, I saw a Cooper prancing his stuff" and I was like, you know about my dog? I asked Tyson and apparently he talks about me a lot to his friends. Kinda scary and kinda flattering.
So we got into a few disagreements, I made him mad because I gave him the silent treatment and yeah, things were a little awkward. On Thursday we were planning on going up to the mountains in Stanley and originally we wanted to sleep in. Tyson was super excited about going and couldn't sleep and was worried about the roads so we left around 10. Before we left, we were talking in bed and I asked if he loved me, kinda joking, and he was quiet for awhile. Then he told me that he loved me. And it was a little awkward. So I told him I loved him too, and that I technically cheated because I told him when he was asleep New Year's day. He told me that he knew he loved me after that Bowl Game incident because he cared so much and it hurt so badly. Kinda fucked up, but he was sure of how he felt about me then.
Our drive to Stanley was really pretty. The weather was mostly clear so we had a great view of the mountains and the sunlight streaming through the trees. Our lodge was really cute and not as terrible as I had imagined. We went to Sun Valley for dinner and the next day we went snowmobiling. Which was a lot of fun, cold, but fun. Tyson had an amazing time because he was looking forward to it. Overall, the trip was good I guess, we mostly did the things that he wanted to do the entire time but I guess I was ok with it. I didn't really care.
So now I'm home. It's weird declaring our love for each other and while I thought this trip would clear my feelings for him, it only made things seem more complicated. I wonder if I really do love him or if I said it to make him happy. I don't know when he's coming back, and I don't know how much I care.
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