I talked with Fox today because he is dating a new girl and seems to really like her. He's in that giddy stage where he's super hopeful and afraid of fucking anything up. It's really cute to hear him that excited and giggly because it's been a really long time since he's been that way.
And I guess that's what keeps people going: that giddy feeling of falling in like with someone. Something more than lust, something more than looks, something more than common ground. Finding someone you feel hopeful with that the two of you can have something great together.
That was something I was really looking forward to when I was dating. Even though my heart wasn't whole and I still hurt, I was still optimistic that I might find that feeling again with someone and despite everything that happened, I was lucky to find that with Tyson. And it's that feeling that I'll look for when I start dating again.
I don't know when that'll be, I don't think it'll be next week, next month, but I know that day will come when I'm willing to put myself out there again. Even though my broken heart isn't completed 100%; that some breaks where too severe for me to pick up all the pieces and glue together. It's knowing that by sifting through the bullshit and awful people, I'll find someone to fall in like with and maybe, if I do this right, fall in love with.
And I guess that's what keeps people going: that giddy feeling of falling in like with someone. Something more than lust, something more than looks, something more than common ground. Finding someone you feel hopeful with that the two of you can have something great together.
That was something I was really looking forward to when I was dating. Even though my heart wasn't whole and I still hurt, I was still optimistic that I might find that feeling again with someone and despite everything that happened, I was lucky to find that with Tyson. And it's that feeling that I'll look for when I start dating again.
I don't know when that'll be, I don't think it'll be next week, next month, but I know that day will come when I'm willing to put myself out there again. Even though my broken heart isn't completed 100%; that some breaks where too severe for me to pick up all the pieces and glue together. It's knowing that by sifting through the bullshit and awful people, I'll find someone to fall in like with and maybe, if I do this right, fall in love with.
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