Maybe I Should Hate You for This

I'm bored...and started thinking about really, really, really random things:

• I want to fall in love with a guy who has a good relationship with his mom. I realize that all the guys I've dated had horrible relationships with their mom ranging from, "Um, I don't know when her birthday is" to "my mom's a fucking bitch." I also want to meet a guy who's mother is sincerely proud of him and doesn't look at him with a look that says, "God, where did I go wrong with him?"
• I wish Cooper could talk. I think there's something wrong with him because he's been acting weird. I'd like to know what's bothering him and if it's something serious that I need to take him to the vet. My weird paranoia suspects either a UTI, or some kind of weird reaction to all the afternoon storms we're having. Also, I think he's afraid that I might leave again as he doesn't let me out of his sight.
• I wonder how much money I'll get from selling the ring...and I wonder if I can even part with it. Sometimes, subconsciously I hang onto things hoping that things will work out in my favor. Kind of like, "Oh yeah, one day I'll be able to fit into those skinny jeans again." The sad thing is, I threw out a bunch of them because I didn't think I could lose weight and one day I did. I lost like, 20 pounds and to this day, I still don't know how as I didn't change my diet or excercise habits.
• I'm gaining weight like crazy. I have no idea why...I'm actually working out and I'm getting fatter every day. I'm trying to go back to my old anorexia roots. We'll see how that works.
• I wonder how my mom survived her marriage with my dad for 22 years...I don't know how she got over the loneliness, despair, and feeling trapped. I couldn't deal with those kind of feelings for 6 months and somehow she survived 22+ years...she is amazing.
• I wish I wanted to visit my family more...I just feel like I'm sliding backwards when I'm with them. In their eyes, I'm still and will always be 5; if not younger.
• Whatever happened to Tommy Hilfiger? Is he still "designing"? I guess since I don't shop at department stores anymore, I have no idea whatever happened to designers like him. I can't recall the last time I bought anything besides Clinique products from a Macy's, Dillards, JC Penney, whatever. As a matter of fact, is JC Penney's still in business?
• I had a weird dream involving Megan and Jamba Juice. We were at DIA and she kept asking me if I wanted a Jamba Juice and I kept saying No but she was very adament about me wanting one so I bought one to shut her up.
• I've also been having a lot of dreams with tornadoes. At least once a week. Lately we have almost nightly tornado warnings and right now, my greatest fear is not being able to get home in time to save Cooper.
• I don't think I'm a snob, but I really hate homeless people and beggars on the street. I can't help but feel uncomfortable when I walk by them.

I guess that's it for today. I wish I could turn my brain off...