I am in Massachusetts right now for work and I have to say, I missed seeing fall. Although I don't think I can live on the east coast, seeing the trees in all their shades of orange, red, yellow, and green is just a welcome sight. I also love that crisp smell of fall...
I talked with Kristin and she finally found a job in North Carolina. She also signed up for Match and I guess I am happy for her. Mostly because I know she's happier and she sounds so much happier than I've heard her in a few years. I told her it really seems like she has a huge weight taken off her shoulders and it feels like she's finally taking a deep breath for once rather than quick shallow ones. She's still the same Kristin though, I don't know if that's ever going to change...you know, the somewhat juvenile, immature, naive part of her...but I guess that's what makes her Kristin.
Last week Erika and talked some more about Tyson. I told her how I thought he wanted to ask me to wait for him and she brought up a good point that I didn't really think about; why and how is that fair for me to wait for him when he can leave Colorado at any time for any amount of time? It's so weird that I never even thought about that...It really made me think about it because we did only date for about a month. Who knows how hard this would have been if we dated longer than that? And when he does come back here and we pick things up, how much will it suck if we end up not liking each other and being disappointed or worse, falling in even more like with each other to have him be sent back to Idaho?
I called him last night because he wanted me to call him after the weekend since he was going camping and he knew I was flying out to the east coast. We talked for awhile and of course, I was a little drunk when we talked so I wasn't as articulate as I wanted to be. I did tell him that I really like him and apologized if I ever seemed guarded or not interested in him because I did that out of fear. I also said that I hoped he didn't think I didn't like him or wasn't interested. He said he never thought that and he knew that I like him. He also mentioned that he wants to quit and find a job out in Colorado since most of his friends are out there and me. I asked him if we would continue dating when he gets back and he was like, "yeah, I want to, I kind of assumed we would." It makes me smile...like a stupid, stupid high school girl. He told me he wasn't interested in dating anyone in Idaho and I told him I wasn't going to date anyone in Colorado. My biggest faux pas of the night was when he asked why and I said because I honestly don't have time. I should have said, and I realized this too late like I always do with him, that I wouldn't date anyone because I really like him and it's not fair to date someone when you're still thinking of another.
It just feels nice to know where I stand, I like being reassured that I mean something to him and the feelings are mutual. I like how he talks about the times we've hung out and why he had fun with me during those times. He mentioned Fort Collins and told me that Chris really likes me. I love how his friends like me and approve of me...it means so much. He's a really good guy and just thinking about him makes me smile and miss him that much more.
I talked with Kristin and she finally found a job in North Carolina. She also signed up for Match and I guess I am happy for her. Mostly because I know she's happier and she sounds so much happier than I've heard her in a few years. I told her it really seems like she has a huge weight taken off her shoulders and it feels like she's finally taking a deep breath for once rather than quick shallow ones. She's still the same Kristin though, I don't know if that's ever going to change...you know, the somewhat juvenile, immature, naive part of her...but I guess that's what makes her Kristin.
Last week Erika and talked some more about Tyson. I told her how I thought he wanted to ask me to wait for him and she brought up a good point that I didn't really think about; why and how is that fair for me to wait for him when he can leave Colorado at any time for any amount of time? It's so weird that I never even thought about that...It really made me think about it because we did only date for about a month. Who knows how hard this would have been if we dated longer than that? And when he does come back here and we pick things up, how much will it suck if we end up not liking each other and being disappointed or worse, falling in even more like with each other to have him be sent back to Idaho?
I called him last night because he wanted me to call him after the weekend since he was going camping and he knew I was flying out to the east coast. We talked for awhile and of course, I was a little drunk when we talked so I wasn't as articulate as I wanted to be. I did tell him that I really like him and apologized if I ever seemed guarded or not interested in him because I did that out of fear. I also said that I hoped he didn't think I didn't like him or wasn't interested. He said he never thought that and he knew that I like him. He also mentioned that he wants to quit and find a job out in Colorado since most of his friends are out there and me. I asked him if we would continue dating when he gets back and he was like, "yeah, I want to, I kind of assumed we would." It makes me smile...like a stupid, stupid high school girl. He told me he wasn't interested in dating anyone in Idaho and I told him I wasn't going to date anyone in Colorado. My biggest faux pas of the night was when he asked why and I said because I honestly don't have time. I should have said, and I realized this too late like I always do with him, that I wouldn't date anyone because I really like him and it's not fair to date someone when you're still thinking of another.
It just feels nice to know where I stand, I like being reassured that I mean something to him and the feelings are mutual. I like how he talks about the times we've hung out and why he had fun with me during those times. He mentioned Fort Collins and told me that Chris really likes me. I love how his friends like me and approve of me...it means so much. He's a really good guy and just thinking about him makes me smile and miss him that much more.
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