Whatever slump that Tyson and I were in is now thankfully, over and passed. While he was in Breck last weekend I had a super fun night out with Julie and the gays. We went out to a wine bar Saturday night, shared 2 bottles of wine, and then we went to Boys Town because Julie's never been. Tyson and I were randomly texting each other throughout the night and I told him I was at a gay strip club and how I wanted to bring one home with me. I don't think he liked that at all, even though most of the strippers there are gay, he got jealous. And I liked it. Not that I was doing it to be cruel or anything, and honestly, like I would really bring one home with me. Even if I did, what would I do? I was attracted to the gay ones anyway.
Mitch dropped us off and then David and Julie and I went and got pizza. While we were there, Mitch sent David a text saying he was going to Tracks to hang out with Alex and Sean. David got really pissy so the three of us went to Tracks out of spite and actually, we had a ton of fun. We were only there for about an hour which was the perfect amount of time to just dance and have a good time. I haven't seen Alex in awhile and we were excited to see each other and he asked if I had a boyfriend while we were dancing and I was like, "Oh my god! I do!!!" and he screamed, "Ugh! That bitch!" while stamping his foot. He calls me his wife and I guess he's my gay husband. He was really upset about me dating Tyson and kept calling him a bitch and saying things like, "He better treat you like a princess, that bitch!" lol, good times. I really hope he comes to the Christmas party so Tyson can meet him.
Tyson came back to Denver Sunday night and came over so we can watch football and hang out. We had a good time and I think the weekend apart where we could both let loose and have fun with our friends really helped us out. He texted me the entire weekend letting me know he was thinking about me and that he missed me. We had a nice night eating McDonald's (finally! I finally found someone who will eat McDonald's with me and not judge me!) watching Monday night football and having lots of sex.
We hung out again last night and watched The Hangover. On Monday night he texted, "I think of you when I'm not with you" and I thought it was sooo sweet. He makes me feel so special and I told him so. I told him it's been a long time since anyone's made me feel that way and how grateful I am to have him in my life. I also asked if he thought our relationship was equal; if he felt like he was putting more into the relationship than I am. He says he feels like this is an equal relationship and I'm glad...I feel the same way too because I know he cares about me and does really like me.
I talked about it a lot with Erika, David, and briefly with Kristin about how I'm wary of letting myself really fall for him. The sad thing is, I know I could completely love Tyson with all my heart and it would be genuine love and not the whole, I'm-infatuated-with-you kind of love. The thing I'm really skeptical about is that we never know when he's leaving and when he's coming back. I hate that about our relationship and it's hard to move too far forward knowing that he can be gone for months without any news of when he'll be back. He says we'll cross that bridge when we come to it but at this point, I don't want to lose him.
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