Maybe it's too early to be excited about this, but last night Tyson and I had a talk about the possibility of him moving to Colorado permanently. We had a date, and it was great because technically we haven't gone on one of those since our second one months ago, and he was mentioning how he wanted to work for the company he's contracted out to here in Denver. He had mentioned moving out to Denver earlier, but we never went into detail of whether he's looking for a job or what.
When he was talking about wanting to move here, I asked if he would miss Idaho. He said, "Well, honestly if you were out in Idaho and stuff, I wouldn't even think of moving out to Colorado. I don't have anything in Idaho." It kind of surprised me because he made it seem like he wants to move out to Colorado for me. I told him that if we did meet in Idaho, I wouldn't be dating him at this point because for the 4 months we've known each other, 3 of those months have been spent in Colorado. He looked hurt by that comment and so I asked, "Well, how long would you want me to wait for you?" and he replied, "Forever." Although he was joking, I know that he meant that a tiny bit. He then went on to say that even if he does get the ball rolling, it might not be until February or March that he's out here whether permanently or temporarily. And I think I can wait that long for him.
This morning he sent me a text letting me know that he talked to his general manager or top boss of the company and told him he wanted to work for them. Since they're hiring, he told Tyson to email his resume directly to him. I'm so glad that he's following through on his word and like he said, at least the ball's rolling. I guess there's a lot of politics involved so it may or may not be a messy break from his current company.
He promised that he'd stop smoking by his birthday. I really hope that he does and he's making an effort. He didn't smoke last night and normally he smokes before coming up to my place. I really appreciate the effort that he's making to put into this relationship. I like how he's trying to prove to me that he'll keep his promises and is now following through. It's so nice to have a guy stick to his words and actually do them instead of talking about it. He just really makes me happy and feel so special...
I had an appointment with Lynn yesterday and we talked a bit more of my relationship with Tyson. I told her that it's frightening and disconcerting because he's so genuinely nice to me and doesn't seem to want anything in return. Whenever Corey was nice to me, it was because he wanted something and I would get immediately suspicious and wary as soon as his tone of voice changed. She said with Tyson, all he really wants is me and that I should let him adore me and make me feel special. It's weird to constantly hear "oh, you deserve to feel that way and to be treated that way" because you feel like the person saying that is just saying that to be nice. It goes in one ear and out the other. It's amazing that when you finally believe in that...it's like my world has completely been turned upside down. He genuinely makes me feel so special and like I truly deserve to feel that way...
Tyson and I were talking about Christmas presents because I'm exchanging gifts with Julie, David, and Erika at the party tomorrow. Tyson and I decided to exchange gifts at Christmas and he hinted that he hasn't gotten mine yet and technically, it's 2 presents. I finally got him to admit what he got me for one of them, and it's a plane ticket to Idaho to spend time with him since we don't know when he'll be back. He hasn't bought the ticket yet and who knows when I'll go out there but it really melted my heart. Like, "Oh...you really care about me, you really want me in your life..."
He might not be "the one" or even the person I'll marry. Can I love him? Sure. I think I'm already falling in love with him. I don't know how long this will last, but the way I feel about myself when I'm with him is something that I think I really needed in my life. For the first time, I feel like I'm getting what I want.
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