I have a ton of good news and so far, it looks like 2010 is off to a good start. Way better than 2009 and I can't help but to feel and be more optimistic for the year.
Since the office was dead last week, David and I left early on Thursday so we can take naps before going out. I already made plans to hang out with Tyson and his friends for new year's but I was hoping that I might be able to hang out with David and Julie before hanging out with Tyson. Alas, that didn't end up happening but it's ok I guess; they had an early night and technically, I didn't go to bed until 6 in the morning new year's day.
So I went home, took Cooper to the grocery store, went to the gym, and took a nap. Tyson was coming over around 6 so I made sure I was ready by then so he didn't have to wait around for me. He didn't come over until about 7 and we went to the liquor store to pick up some beers and headed to his place to wait for Fran and everyone else so we could all get a cab to The Gothic. We all sat around drinking beer, waiting for people, waiting for Anne Marie to get ready, and watching Erica with her baby. He's 3 months old now and was fussy and making weird noises and at some point Tyson and I looked over at each other at the same time and shook our heads "No." We drank all the beer and then we started rolling; we took a couple of really good hits so I had a nice buzz going by the time we left the house.
Since it was going to take a few hours to get a cab, Tyson and some other girl drove all of us to the Gothic and we all went in and just started drinking some more. I didn't eat too much earlier so I was feeling the alcohol so I stopped after 2 drinks and stuck with water. Tyson and I took a couple more hits and we started dancing and wandering around the place since it wasn't packed yet and they were looking for people they knew. For the most part, it was really fun, I had a lot of fun hanging out with Fran and Brian and just being completely oblivious. I met a friend of Tyson's whose husband was a DJ and she kept talking to me and I was like, um, ok, I'm really high and can't form coherent sentences but I'll talk to you anyway. She was like, "You know, you would think that Tyson's the type of guy that just likes to fuck around but really, he wants to get married and settle down." I just kinda blinked at her a few times and wandered away. I did that a lot that night...just kinda wandered off. It worked out because eventually I ran into someone I knew or someone found me.
Alas, I did lose my wallet. I was sitting at the bar for probably 40 minutes watching the TV thing because I could have sworn I saw an ad for Alkaline Trio and I must have forgotten it, dropped it, or it fell out of my purse. I guess it's ok because I cancelled my card and I only had like, 80 bucks in cash and my ID. Oh well, shit happens and since that was the only bad part of my night, I guess I got off lucky.
So finally midnight is approaching and Tyson and I are on the dance floor and the count down begins. The guy messed up and went from 10,9 to 2,1 Happy New Year! but it was ok, Tyson and I just smiled at each other and kissed. And it was perfect. It was the New Year's Eve kiss I've been dreaming about for years and I finally got one. I was expecting confetti and was really disappointed that there wasn't any but I guess you can't win it all. I also gave Fran a kiss before and after midnight and I texted a lot that night but it's ok, because I didn't text any douches.
After the party, we all decided to go back to Tyler and Anne Marie's place and so we went by my place to pick up Cooper and went over. There were more people there and we all started listening to music, drinking more beer, and rolling a little more. Tyson was ready to go to bed around 5:30 and I wanted to stay up later but I ended up going to bed with him. We said good night to everyone and drifted off to sleep. It was my first time sleeping over at his place and it was a little weird because I felt like someone was going to walk in on us or something; I'm just not used to roommates and whenever we spent the night at Chris' I think we were the only ones in the basement. We didn't technically get out of bed until noon and we just went to my place and had a late brunch and took naps and watched college football and Tyson slept a lot.
On Saturday we had brunch with Megan. She was in town for a day and I really wanted to see her. Unfortunately, we met her down in Lone Tree around 9 so we were both super tired and poor Tyson, he sat there slightly overwhelmed while Megan and I talked a million miles a minute. It was really good seeing her again but I felt bad because Tyson probably was bored and felt left out and I really just wanted to talk to her without anyone being there. I don't know how she felt about him since obviously we couldn't talk about it and I haven't talked to her since Saturday, but I'm sure I'll find out soon enough.
Tyson went home afterwards to do some errands and we planned on going to the aquarium later that night. So I cleaned the house, took a nap, walked Cooper, the usual shit. We went and had dinner and went to the aquarium and we had a lot of fun. The Denver aquarium is really small and they had some really random things in there like tigers and parrots, but it was ok I guess. I think it would have been better in the daytime since they have glass ceilings and it was a little dark in there, but it wasn't too crowded and it was fun to do something out of the norm. The sea otters were sleeping and I was really saddened by that; I couldn't see them so I walked off disappointed and Tyson was like, "Babe, they're right there..." and I ran over only to trip on something and go crashing into the side of the exhibit. Afterwards, we went home and watched college football.
We were a little sad and nervous, Tyson was meeting Gary the next day and still haven't heard from him and I was really worried about what we'll have to do in terms of our relationship. I knew he was leaving Monday morning and I was just really sad because I didn't want to lose him and I was conflicted on how to approach the subject and how to work out some compromise. I knew he wanted to do long distance and I knew he wanted me to wait at least 4 months for him but I wasn't sure if I could do that. Luckily, he had his interview the next day and got the job.
Now I don't know how to feel. He still needs to tell his company in Idaho about transferring/quitting. I know he'll give them his 2 week notice and probably will move out here the third week of January. I'm just...nervous now because I can't use the whole "I don't know when you're moving back and forth so I can't let myself like you" thing to shield myself from this relationship. He was mad at me because I talk a lot about Corey; he knows I don't like him or anything but really, Corey was the only relationship I had in college let alone my adult life. He has a huge role in the person I am today and yeah, I don't think I'm completely over the hurt he caused me. Now I'm scared of the possibility of a future with Tyson...and I can't hide behind his job jerking him around and now I actually have to face this relationship and actually work on it for a future longer than a couple months.
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