I spent part of last week in Idaho again. Tyson was sick so we didn't do much; well, he had a really sore throat and was just lethargic so we didn't do anything. We planned on not going anywhere this time just because we wanted to save up money for another time. It was pretty boring, we spent most of the time in his room watching The Office. We did go for a bike ride through town and that was ok until his clutch gave out. And honestly, that was about it. It wasn't great but it wasn't bad. I cooked a lot and took care of him and really, it was nice to just lay around and not care about anything. I've come to realize that there will be more of those "blah" moments rather than having fun all the time so it's nice to know that we can be in the same room together and be bored together.
Aside from that, I think my dad's going crazy or he's fucking bipolar or something. He keeps saying more inappropriate things that make me want to kill myself and now he's back to harassing mom and her family. God, I hate my dad. He continues saying that my brother and I have completely fucked up his life and he blames us for mom leaving. I hate talking to him and I'm avoiding his calls like the plague.
Mr. Kim is thinking about moving out to Colorado permanently and when he comes out this summer, we're changing our number so our dad can't bother us. He makes me feel so bad about myself and really, I may have fucked up a lot but I have never done anything to warrant that much hatred from my own dad.
I've been really bummed about the whole crappy fucked up situation with my family. But I'm trying to look on the brighter side of things and I thank God that I live far enough away from them. Things with Tyson are going extremely well and although we probably annoyed each other over the weekend, I'm pretty satisfied with where my life is at the moment.
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