I guess things haven’t been that exciting in the last couple weeks. After I got back from Williamsburg, I had the weekend before I went to Massachusetts for work. Spent 3 days there; took an earlier flight and got into Denver Thursday rather than Friday. When I landed, I had a couple messages from Tyson and I got the first good news in awhile. His company and SNC finally worked out a contract and he was supposed to be in Denver to work on June 14th. This should be about 5-6 weeks of work so I was super excited to see him for more than 5 days. But, as things inevitably happen with his company, the date got pushed back to the 21st so Tyson won’t be coming out til next week which makes me really sad. I was really hoping that I would be able to see him on Saturday. I guess the only real good thing is that I won’t have to leave him as soon as he got here since I’m leaving for Massachusetts on Sunday.
So over the weekend, I hung out with Erika, David, and Julie Friday night and Saturday night I hung out with Corey on South Broadway. We were supposed to go to a concert but Freelance Whales cancelled their Denver show so we just left. So that was uneventful and lame, but we did have a good time. I ended up getting sick because I drank a fair amount of hard liquor and my body can’t process it very well anymore.
I ended up getting tattooed on Sunday. Corey came along with me and I had two swallows tattooed on my ribs on the left side. Originally I was going to get Brand New lyrics tattooed but I was afraid of the pain and the amount of time it would take to get it done. I have to say, although the tattoo is bigger than I would have liked, I love it.
Tyson’s not too thrilled. He was pissed I was hanging out with Corey and getting shit faced with him and even more pissed when I told him I was getting a tattoo. But I think he’ll like it; it’s healing nicely and it’s beautiful; I love it so much.
So Tyson’s coming out...soon. I’m so excited but I’m also nervous. I think we both know that this is really it; whether this is going to work or not. We get to see each other every day for at least 5 weeks and really, at the end of it, we’ll know so much more about each other. He asked if he could stay with me and while at first I was a little over-cautious, I agreed and he’s going to stay with me and Cooper in my tiny ass studio. I just hope we don’t get on each other’s nerves and I hope I can keep my temper in check when he and I have to share a tiny tiny space.
I thought about what it really is that I like about long distance relationships because seriously, there are probably more downsides than good. Ultimately what it really came down to was the distance forces us to talk and have a connection through that. Physical connection is great but really, you can fuck anyone but finding someone who gets you and still wants to be with you despite knowing the negatives are hard to find. I also really like the fact that when we see each other, it’s like dating all over again. We both go out of our way to think of something fun and interesting to do instead of the boring yet comfortable, normal, day-to-day stuff.
I guess I’m also afraid that we’ll get complacent and it’ll get too comfortable between us. It would be so easy to fall into a routine of dinner, tv, sex, and bed. Although I want that as well, I want us to still have fun and I don’t know...treat each other to something special and “date-like.” We talked about it and he said we can still go out to nice dinners and shit, so we’ll see. I really hope we don’t get bored with each other. I know it might happen one day but I don’t want it to happen so soon.
So we’ll be living together...which means it’s really at this point that I need to make perfectly clear what I am capable and willing to do in a relationship. I let Corey get away with so much because I didn’t feel like arguing and yelling at him to pick up his damn socks and shit and it was easier for me to just clean. But that made me resentful; I didn’t enjoy doing those things for him. I guess I’ll have to make it clear to Tyson that if we moved in together in a different apartment of house, it would be a little different because there’s no way I can be the perfect Stepford Wife and still work a 9-5 job.
So over the weekend, I hung out with Erika, David, and Julie Friday night and Saturday night I hung out with Corey on South Broadway. We were supposed to go to a concert but Freelance Whales cancelled their Denver show so we just left. So that was uneventful and lame, but we did have a good time. I ended up getting sick because I drank a fair amount of hard liquor and my body can’t process it very well anymore.
I ended up getting tattooed on Sunday. Corey came along with me and I had two swallows tattooed on my ribs on the left side. Originally I was going to get Brand New lyrics tattooed but I was afraid of the pain and the amount of time it would take to get it done. I have to say, although the tattoo is bigger than I would have liked, I love it.
Tyson’s not too thrilled. He was pissed I was hanging out with Corey and getting shit faced with him and even more pissed when I told him I was getting a tattoo. But I think he’ll like it; it’s healing nicely and it’s beautiful; I love it so much.
So Tyson’s coming out...soon. I’m so excited but I’m also nervous. I think we both know that this is really it; whether this is going to work or not. We get to see each other every day for at least 5 weeks and really, at the end of it, we’ll know so much more about each other. He asked if he could stay with me and while at first I was a little over-cautious, I agreed and he’s going to stay with me and Cooper in my tiny ass studio. I just hope we don’t get on each other’s nerves and I hope I can keep my temper in check when he and I have to share a tiny tiny space.
I thought about what it really is that I like about long distance relationships because seriously, there are probably more downsides than good. Ultimately what it really came down to was the distance forces us to talk and have a connection through that. Physical connection is great but really, you can fuck anyone but finding someone who gets you and still wants to be with you despite knowing the negatives are hard to find. I also really like the fact that when we see each other, it’s like dating all over again. We both go out of our way to think of something fun and interesting to do instead of the boring yet comfortable, normal, day-to-day stuff.
I guess I’m also afraid that we’ll get complacent and it’ll get too comfortable between us. It would be so easy to fall into a routine of dinner, tv, sex, and bed. Although I want that as well, I want us to still have fun and I don’t know...treat each other to something special and “date-like.” We talked about it and he said we can still go out to nice dinners and shit, so we’ll see. I really hope we don’t get bored with each other. I know it might happen one day but I don’t want it to happen so soon.
So we’ll be living together...which means it’s really at this point that I need to make perfectly clear what I am capable and willing to do in a relationship. I let Corey get away with so much because I didn’t feel like arguing and yelling at him to pick up his damn socks and shit and it was easier for me to just clean. But that made me resentful; I didn’t enjoy doing those things for him. I guess I’ll have to make it clear to Tyson that if we moved in together in a different apartment of house, it would be a little different because there’s no way I can be the perfect Stepford Wife and still work a 9-5 job.
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